Lately, I'm constantly looking around for my 4th baby. I get everyone to the dinner table (including Baby A) and I look around like, "Okay, where's the other one?"
It is so odd. And I get this feeling ALL THE TIME now. Which is making things difficult for me since I've basically decided that we will stop with 3 babies.
Please note that this is a very recent decision; made mostly after trying to heal from Baby A's birth. It was apparently more than I could take :)
But, seriously...I keep thinking there is someone missing. When we are loading up the car, I look for the 4th child. When I am putting the kids to sleep at night, I look for this 4th baby.
I don't know if I really want a 4th baby and this is my subconscious kicking in. Or, if I just have so many kids now that my mind is playing tricks on me :)
Either way, it is the oddest sensation/feeling to look at my 3 babies and say, "Wait, where did the other one go?"
Butter in the Blood
2 weeks ago